ISU party was great..I got to be with a new crowd of people..interesting...got to see my high school friends...got to talk about careers..:)mixed feelings...thank God..some of Agora friends was there..I don't know what would I do if they weren't there..I think I would have come home early..really nice place..but as usual some people couldn't get in..I didn't like the DJ much..
Mohandes tickets are sold out..I guess it would a wonderful event:)

Shocking!!
The first question poped in my mind was why you did it?I was shocked..but now it deosn't seem as shocking..this is what the Ph.D student in our lab told me;)....The post doc can't stop laughing at me!!!every time he looks at me he smiles!!!The prof...came in the lab...the first thing he said:"so you changed your hair style!!!!!!!!"I guess its so different that even my absent minded prof noticed as well;)...my chinese friend didn't like it...my Arab friend is still shocked;)the Canadian PhD said it was nice...its funny:)
Turkish guy gave me some of the sweets that are from Turkey, when he came..they are so tasty:)I think its the same as "Rahatol holghom" I love that pastry:-) but with hazel nut...
I tried Wiley Mill today:)the small mesh...its so cute..creates saw dust...I wonder how the composite with this high surface area will come up...this project is getting very interesting..getting to measure the cellulose and hemicellulose and other major contents of these straws...some thing I have never done before...
This Turkish guy is like the older brother I never had..I just want to listen to him...and his ideas about life...and religion..he is very religious but the way he explains it, is interesting..he told me not to change for some one unless I want the change..."this is something from you and the creator"....

Everyone is going to be suprized today at ISU party tonight:)be tuned;)

some times I wonder when this cut in my heart will get healed...I don't know why my heart teared in the first place..may be because he was my first love....I don't know why when I think about him and his new girlfriend I still feel the pain..its wiered...its as if I can actually feel the sword straight in to my heart...I am still ignorant in the matters of heart...I try to forget...try to logically explain...tried to replace him...but seriously emotional issues are totally irrational...for engineers like me, it doesn't make sence..but really I don't know why...It is a big question mark in my mind...why is it so hard to talk about it...do you think I should talk to him...or should try to do what I have been trying for the past 2 years?

TOXIC
I don't like Britney Spears music most of the times but this new song of hers is interesting...dangerous;)make sure you actually listen to the music...The music back ground creativity is great...I like the change of her sound even if it is computerized...here is the lyrics..ready!!!!!!!


from lycrcs.com
"Baby can't you see
I'm calling
A guy like you should wear a warning
It's dangerous
I'm falling
There's no escape
I can't wait
I need a hit
Baby give me it
You're dangerous
I'm loving it

Too high, can't come down
Losing my head
Spinning 'round and 'round
Do you feel me now

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slipping under
Tasting the poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic
And I love what you do
Don't you know that you're toxic

It's getting late to give you up
I took a sip
From my devil cup
Slowly taking over me

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slipping under
Tasting the poison paradise
I'm additcted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic
And I love what you do
Don't you know that you're toxic

Intoxicate me now
With your loving now
I think I'm ready now
Intoxicate me now
With your loving now
I think I'm ready now"

Today at 10:30 I will be another person!!I am going to do another make over...I hope it looks great...I am going to take a risk..I am going to challange my conservatism...again and again...try to feel free of my own self critiques...
Yesterday My prof told us that he has got a 6 million dollar grant:)I am sooooooo happy for him..I think I bring money for profs;)since my thesis supervisor got 1 million dollar the year I started to work for him:)I am their lucky charm;)the same way "P" is for me..I hope he stays that way for me..and hear from the second interview:)
Yesterday I was working on the computer when the Turkish guy came to our lab and started talking to me about our new year and "charshabe soori".. he knew about "charshanbe soori"..it was amazing..but for the past week I don't feel like I am living in this era!!I keep forgetting what day and date it is..I don't know why..he seemed interested about that event..and I offered him to come with me to Leslie park..I hope he comes, I want to see his facial expression when he sees all the people and music and the fire:)its funny when we start talking we can't stop it;)!!unless someone calls me or him for something then we have to stop the converstation...I feel like he is the only guy I can trust right now and that I can tell him about anything and I can hear his answere without any biast..

Last night I got the chance to watch Dirty Dancing Havana nights:)..it was interesting but It was my first time watching salsa cuban style...it seems to have less technical moves...however this dance needs a strong personality specially for the girls..not to be afraid..to set free...that is when you really enjoy the dance ...I think if you have found that special someone you should try it;)I think it's more passionate than regular Salsa...anyways afterwards deseart:)...huge banana woffel at Demitri's:)
I am firm beiliever that if you like someone you should tell them...otherwise it will be a big question mark in your mind, that what if I have told!!but again I can't explain better than the song below....Kelly Clarkson really suprized me...initially I thought its Christina Aguilera who is singing but kelly doesn't have the same depth that Christina has..but still I love both of them..
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Today I am going to look at fiber cells under a microscope:)soooooo exciting..

The Trouble With Love IS....
www.justourpictures.com
Kelly Clarkson did it again:)This song is wonderful I recommond it to all my friends in love or want to be in love including me;)

Love can be a many splendid thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses
Diamond rings
Dreams for sale
And fairy tales
It’ll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It’ll fool you every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

Now I was once a fool it’s true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world’s a deeper blue
I’m sadder but I’m wiser too
I swore I’d never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn’t worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

Every time I turn around
I think I’ve got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin
And I keep on fallin
Over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two
(The trouble with love is) It's in your heart it's in your soul
(It doesn't care how fast you fall) You're losing all control
(And you can’t refuse the call)
So you’ve got no say at all